5/12/2005 Day which given second times to live

9am i reached kch airport. 10.30am i cont my trip to lundu with friends. Yea, i imagined dat when arrived, i would spent my great time with friends gossip ea other, play cards, joking around till stomach bei tahan, lay at beach and see stars...

Imagination is perfect. In fact.

2 hours after that, the driver lost control at corner wit high speed. Half side was outside the road. He tried to turn the car out from grass. Next, car accelerate to other side. What had i seen after that is pusing pusing about 3-4 rounds. I never closed my eyes.(if not wrong, wilson ass is above me, i saw black things above me) I wonder when i will die. I will die? When the car stop? I got no fear. No time to fear. I Hear only crashing sounds.

Everything stopped. The car was perfect landing at land few meters from where we pusing. I still alive? Why? I didn't feel any pain. Wilson still shouted somebody head is blooding(in fact was his hand badly cut off into deep wound, all blood which splash around was contributed by him). Everybody is getting out. I didn't know wat to do. It's 1st time experience. The car didn't show any sign of good condition. Its head totally damage. I wonder why we survive since the car look like that. I lost 1 of my selipar. nvm, my feet was cut by stg also. It's blooding. Na, didn't care cause not pain at all. I find my wallet and etc. Shit, my beloved jacket kenak blood!

I still wonder why we survive? Why i still alive from the incident? I was wondering on the journey to hospital. Wilson still got mood to joke around behind. I'm not talking much. I just felt my head very painful after knock on unknown things. I nearly cried out after i tot wat would happen if i die. How about my mom and my family? Luckily, i didn't. I called them, told them i'm ok, everybody were ok.

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When flash back of the accident, i'm still wondering why i still alive. Haha, scary also, next time will be more careful. No more younger driver for me.Appreaciate everything.

P/S: Remember, Scold and FxxK ur driver who drive dangerously, ur life depend on him.

SMS from a gal

If u think so good go join her la n i wount talk wit u nemore.. wat so gud! Blaz off! Ony noe herself! She 1s 2 go here n thr can la if me knt! Mind ur own biznez!

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It's a sms from my 17 years old friend after i tried to settle conflict btw her and her sis. Hmmm... kinda hurt after saw dat msg. Mind ur own biznez. I got ntg to say anymo. For me, few years ago oso will be like this, when i'm still childish. All mind will be conquered by anger. No one can persuade me since i'm in blazing mood. haha. But flash back of that, isn't that stupid? For wat had i done even the opponent is my mother. Why so angry for such little things? May be that day will said "mind ur own biznez, nobody wouldn't understand my problem!" So, began from someday i didn't realized, i promised not to controlled by anger, less to be angry, patient, anything will be ok after few seconds, just be silent, isn't it? Especially for ur family. They are more important than anything. Someday u will know if u still don't reliaze now.

Gal, grow up now...

S.H.E -- 天灰

如果你不再出现 我的世界 还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什么叫永远

想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言 一点点摧毁

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